am i picky?  maybe…one of my friends constantly tell me how i don’t give guys a chance when they asked me out…for me i know the minutes when i first met someone whether i like him as a friend or more than that…  i do admit there’re time i don’t feel any connection when i 1st met someone but after 2nd or 3rd times i know i like him more than a friend or just a friend…

so for instance recently someone asked me casually if i want to go see a movie…well out of the blues he asked me i don’t have an explanation to gave him if i say “No” so i said “yes” if we both r free… i figure when he asked again i’ll just say i’m busy i can’t make it & eventually he’ll get the hint… one of the thing i won’t do is if i know for sure i don’t like someone romantically like he does w/me i’m not going to bother going to the movie or dinner alone w/him… why hurt his feeling knowing i know for a fact i never will feel that way toward him… maybe part of the reason is i’m afraid of karma…i never want someone i like to hang w/me just cuz he is bored & nothing else to do… set him free so he can find his Mrs.Right…

Long story short he called again & again… what kind of movie or food i like?  i know he’s not getting the hint & i felt bad… i don’t want him to think i feel the same way he does… “i finally said let’s not do the movie…. i feel awarkward going to the movie alone w/a guy… i don’t want people to get the wrong ideas… is she w/him?  is he w/her?”  i’m not sure he heard the whole phrase i said since i was nervous & doesn’t want to hurt his feeling…i was mumbling alot (i do that alot when i’m nervous & want to get everything off my chest)  after he couldn’t understand what i was saying he said he can’t understand what i said… i finally said let’s not do the movie thing… i cut it short…

am i being mean?  no i whether say it out loud before it goes any further… am i wrong?  yes i do think i should have said no the 1st time he asked me if i want to go see a movie sometimes?  but i don’t have the heart to say no to him that time… he’s such a sweet & nice guy… he’ll make some girl happy just not happen to be me…

i don’t have that much luck when it come to dating.. that’s the story for another day… stay tune!

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